Monday, November 21, 2016

Music Monday with Holiday Madness

  Anyone working retail knows that the Holiday seasons are already in full force. Our store is a glitter paradise, filled with customers in questionable moods. They are all either super giddy or down right nasty. There doesn't seem to be much in-between wiggling room.So as I dress for work I need a little pick me up and look on the brighter side. Yes, I may be headed into work way to early, but that means more hours and money talks. So, instead of grumbling about the time I'll think of the Christmas wishes I am helping come true and the money I could seriously use right about now.

  Working the Christmas season is like getting the best and the worst of hitting the lotto. Sure you'll get a little change in your pocket, but everybody and their brother is now seriously needy. Needing an early morning groove to get me moving, I decided I would share a newer song by Exo. I've shared a song by Exo K before as the band was split into two. One side was Exo K (Korean) and one was Exo M (as they sung in Mandarin). Now with members leaving the groups they have pulled the last 9 members together to form one unit who is now simply Exo.


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  So, cheers for hitting the Christmas season lotto with a beat to get you going. Happy Thanksgiving and have a safe Black Friday.

Exo- Lotto

Monday, August 29, 2016

Music Monday as if it Were Your Last Day

  


  With my son starting his Senior year in high school and apply to colleges, our family has been planning for our future. Hopefully in the next year I'll get enough training to become a manager, so I'll have more chances for employment when we move back down south. We are looking into jobs, towns, convenience, prices and a point where we can all be happy.

  For me all the planning makes me happy, but stressed. We all have to deal with the worries of the normal every day like work, bills, family issues, trying to keep up with my very minimal social life and helping friends who need help along the way. It's easy to get overwhelmed with everything life throws at you. Of course, we all have those days we wish we could avoid adulting like the plague. What can you do, that's life.


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   In book 3 of my Zogone Sagas- Ancient Enemies a few of my characters are dealing with the worst stress imaginable, trying to save the life of a family member they had all thought long dead. We might not have their problems on a normal bases, but problems in life can add up. The problem with having to face the world is that a person can't deal with more than they can handle. Humans have to learn every once in a while to take a step back and think about themselves once in a while. I don't mean be a crazy diva like, "My birthday is this month, so the whole month has to be devoted to me!" That is just crazy. It's ok to think about yourself once in a while, pamper yourself. Even if it is just making time to do your nails or read a good book, anything so that you aren't to busy making a living to actually live your life. Once in a while, its ok to just stop and think about what you will regret missing out on if this were your last day on Earth.

  To keep with this idea, I picked today's song to remind us that we can't deal with everything and some times we just need to wonder, "What if this was my last day?" I'll share two versions of this. The song was originally sung in German and was called Der Letzte Tag. Literally meaning the last day. When this band's album was remade in English they changed the title slightly to Final Day. There isn't a video made for Final Day other than lyrics ones, so I'll share another fan's video. I'll also share the official MV for Der Letzte Tag, because even if you don't understand German the band, Tokyo Hotel seriously rocks this song. Did I mention this is one of my favorite bands and can't resist sharing them.
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Final Day (Lyrics) - Tokyo Hotel


Tokio Hotel - Der letzte Tag
 

Monday, August 22, 2016

Music Monday to Get You Going

  Shhhh, we're still sleeping. We wish! Nope it is the dreaded Monday morning again and if you are anything like me, then you are seriously dragging ass. My son being the wonderful, hilarious young man he is told me this morning, "Ma look this up and you'll get a good laugh out of it."

  So, just to make him happy I looked up his video on Youtube and I swear I haven't laughed that much in years. If you need a little something to perk you up and help you get a smile on your face to start the day, then you have hit the right place. Watch this video and join me in LMAO.

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The Salt and Pepper Diner - John Mulaney

  Now, if you listened to the whole video I'm sure you have this song running through your head. So, listen to it and try real hard to hold back your snorting laughter.

What's New Pussycat? Tom Jones

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Monday, August 15, 2016

Music Monday with Shooting Stars

 Your local slacker is back at it. Being busy or procrastinating or just lazy excuses could be added here, but the truth is I have just been overwhelmed with worries and anxiety. My store must have a curse on it right now. It seems like all my friends I work with are having issue after issue right now.
 

  There have been a number of car accidents, plus a motorcycle accident. We have illness and a number of random operations, not to mention one of those was for our favorite boss man. So, lucky us, we get a replacement store manager for the next four weeks or so. *cringe*  There have been bad customers, no customers and even horrible birthday parties I've hosted. Not to mention the ones who have special needs kids they desperately love, yet get so stressed over.

  On the plus side there have been babies and weddings, graduations and hope for the future. Find new ways to better yourself, like I am by starting to learn a new language, Tagalog. But for now, all of us could use a wish on a shooting star to keep us pushing along. If like us your luck has been on the crap side of the shingle lately here's a shooting star just for you. Take a breath and make a wish for some good luck to come your way. And if it is your birthday soon, don't waste that wish use it to help everyone.



  B.o.B - Airplanes ft. Hayley Williams of Paramore
 

Friday, June 3, 2016

Freaky Friday With My Obsessions

  Finally... it took oh so long, but finally I have finished reading Obsession By Lennard J. Davis. I now have a full understanding of how mental disorders, illnesses and even the vapors first came known to the public eye. There are so many things that I learned from reading this book. Mr. Davis knows his subject and is a brilliant rationalist. For me reading this book was like pealing onions. I struggled, pealing each page back, eyes watering as I squinted to fully understand and digest each word. Some bits of knowledge were left in soggy piles on the side while other bits were rolled up into notes to make onion rings later.

  One such ring of knowledge was about a Dr. Edward Perch of London, England. He believed that the type of obsessive love that leads to stalking is a curable illness like alcoholism, with the proper medicine and rehabilitation it can be cured. To that idea he opened the first stalker clinic Chase Farm Hospital in Enfield, New London.  Here is a news article I found in the Huffington Post.

World’s First Stalking Clinic Opens, Offers Treatment And Rehab For Stalkers


  By taking the time to research the obsessive mind, I think I finally understand how a person can change so drastically, what can send a seemingly normal person over the line and what emotions make them unable to see what they are doing is wrong. People are not ruled by thoughts of right or wrong, emotions.... love, fear, obsession... those are the things that force us to react and not always in an except-able way.

Anxiety, depression, OCD, Aspergers syndrome, ADD, ADHD, Autism and obsession are all just different ways of looking at the world. You may live seeing everything sad or scary, while others can only see what is out of place. Some see the world as strange shapes that simply revolve around their tiny bit of personal space. Then there are others whose mind runs faster so that the world around them seems to go in slow motion. I know people who have all of those conditions and a number of other mental 'disorders' but for me it begs to be seen whether or not some people are normal or just regular, while the ones with these so called disorders are actually the exceptionally gifted ones who can see and experience what everyone else can not.

  I usually don't add songs on Friday posts, but this one is just perfect to describe our topic on what goes through people's minds. Listen to the lyrics and it is easy to see the lead singer James Davis knows a thing or two about our topic. After the link I'll add the lyrics in case you don't catch them all.

Korn: Coming Undone

Coming Undone By: Korn

Keep holding on
When my brain's ticking like a bomb
Guess the black thoughts
Have come again to get me
Sweet bitter words
Unlike nothing I have heard
Sing along, mockingbird
You don't affect me
That's right
Deliver it to my heart
Please strike
Be deliberate
Wait, I'm coming undone
Irate, I'm coming undone
Too late, I'm coming undone
What looks so strong, so delicate
Wait, I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong, so delicate
Choke, choke again
I find my demons were my friends
Pity me in the end
They're out to get me
Since I was young
I tasted sorrow on my tongue
And this sweet sugar gun
Does not protect me
That's right
Trigger between my eyes
Please strike
Make it quick now
Wait, I'm coming undone
Unlaced, I'm coming undone
Too late, I'm coming undone
What looks so strong, so delicate
Wait, I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong, so delicate
I'm trying to hold it together
Head is lighter than a feather
Looks like I'm not getting better
Not getting better
Wait, I'm coming undone
Unlaced, I'm coming undone
Too late, I'm coming undone
What looks so strong, so delicate
Wait, I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong, so delicate

Monday, May 16, 2016

Music Monday With a Sickness

  I'm still struggling along through Obsession: A History By: Lennard J. Davis and learning all about what makes a seemingly normal person slowly slip into a sickness of the mind. Honestly, this isn't my first difficult character to write. Some characters have filled my dreams with nags and complaints, a few even leading to books of their own. But, not once have I ever had a character that has so completely confounded me until now.

  Writing out the books outline was enough to bring me to tears. The monster this young man becomes was enough to make my stomach turn and disgust me. The problem is he doesn't start out this way. To reel the girl in, he is confident and charming. The first few chapters he is everything she could ever want in a lover, but he slowly changes as his confidence wanes and hidden complexes start to show. Fear from the lose of his parents is redirected toward her. Fear of losing her too changes him and turns into obsession, madness, sickness.



  I imagine the best way to describe these feelings has already been shown by the band Disturbed. What do you think? Have they got the right idea?

Disturbed- Down With the Sickness

Monday, May 9, 2016

Music Monday to Find a Monster

  Here is an update on my 'Anikin" dilemma. Not being a psychopath myself, it is hard for me to pull up the emotions it would take to turn someone who is loving, caring, smart and charming into a monster. So, once again  I'm hitting the books and doing research that blows my mind. Surprisingly this is even worse than my zombie research that taught me the ends and outs of a corpse's decomposition.

   

  Picture credit to www.quora.com.

  My main research into the psychology behind this type of character is based on obsession, so I thought it would be a good idea to start at the beginning and see where the emotion came from. To that order, I started reading Obsession: A History By: Lennard J. Davis.


  Not to tute my own horn or anything, but I can honestly say I am a very smart woman.  I'm smart enough to read books on psychology and understand what they are talking about. But, I have to say this book is taking me a while. Its almost like translating words from another language. I understand, but I have to check my mental dictionary with every other word. I'm learning a lot about the human mind. There are a number of topics in this book I already knew people have done, but Mr. Davis explains the when, why and how of things in a way that make me fully understand it. But alas, it is major research and I'm only half way through the book after two weeks. To much info and translating make my head hurt.

  Over the next few weeks, I'll drop in to update everyone on how my research is going. Until then, here is today's Music Monday video to help me find my character's monster inside.

Meg & Dia- Monster